i just feel so sad all the time for no reason …. i d k what 2 do :+/
i wish i wasn’t so free w my heart everyone makes my heart do flips!!! but also… i’m happy i am so loving and i am not gonna change a gd thing
i’ve never met this guy n we have been chatting all night n he seems so sweet i have no clue what his name is or what he looks like
i woke up sad and im hungry and im so so so scarily broke and my mom ignores me when i tell her i desperately need money but then hits me up for help when i get home…
i can’t stop feeling really really bad in like a chemical way like my emotions don’t feel right
idk i haven’t been single in so long and now i’m glorifying the same things i used to when i was younger n single (i haven’t been single in 2yrs) but like i’m listening to songs like “all i want is this one special person to dance w to this who thinks i’m cute n kisses me on the nose when it’s over !!” and dumb sh*t like that but like, when i was in relationships, i always got bored/took the people i was with for granted and just like, used them as a comfort. and like, i forget i have cute friends i can do these things with too and i don’t HAVE to get fulfillment from One Person, and i should be completely fulfilled by JUST ME. but like, idk, it’s so hard to do this shit right, and by this shit i mean like… life as a whole. Idk. i feel alone and like Chicago was such a relief bc i love ellie sosososo much and we click so well, but also, it’s so big and i’m so scared i’m gonna get lost and end up alone. which is ridiculous but there’s so much imm afraid i’m gonna drown!!! idk imm literally SO DRAMATIC and anxious and i need 2 SHUT ! the fuck up!!! but like…. how
